Although written in an autobiographical style,
Karen admitted to writing fiction.
(Although the accounts of medical emergencies in
all from calls she or one of her associates responded to.)
. . . She thrived on thrills.
. . . And she did have a thing for Emma Peel.
Examples of my grief:
I am not at all prepared!
Could I ever be? . . .
Shocked and stunned! . . .
Benumbed! . . . Imperfectly benumbed.
A great hurt felt only bit-by-bit. . . .
O Karen! I miss you acutely!
Always will I rue the loss of our conjoint future.
Weren't we yet to have decades to argue with, annoy,
amuse, appreciate and animate one other?
Diis aliter visum.
You have been torn from me!
I hurt deeply!
Karen was my oldest (longest term, I mean!)
and best friend.
There is a big hole in my heart.
Even though we lived time zones apart,
we had frequent telephone and email contact
and maintained a shared communication on
matters both trivial and profound.
In September 2008 Karen came to visit me
and we took a trip down the coast to Oregon.
It was a rich and full experience,
playful and intense,
the mundane and sacred freely intermingling in our interaction.
We had conflicts during the trip and got to examine our stuff.
We challenged and forgave each other.
We became even closer if that is possible.
I lost my best friend. My compass. My touchstone.
I miss Karen!!!
The oldest email from Karen in my imperfect archive is 1997.
We used email little in those days.
It couldn't handle the content.
We both spent a fair amount on long distance!
Indeed that was a tough time for me.
I was broke, between jobs, and navigating
the end of my marriage and another gross betrayal
that cost a friendship, plus still acutely mourning
I suspect Karen can still say nothing about grief save she is sorry we have to have it.
It's sort of neat that the Rolling Stones are playing a concert in Chicago
on September 23, Soldier Field or something.
How are things in Seattle?
They'd almost have to be better than the last update I got from you.
There's nothing i can say about grief to you, but I'm sorry you have to have it
There's a birthday card I like that says:
On your birthday I just want you to know that no matter how old you are,
I'll always be younger than you. Alas, I cannot deliver you that message.
If you read this on pst then I'm a day off, but Happy Birthday.
(End Karen)[Date: Tue, 23 Sep 1997 01:11:49 -0500]
 . . .
I'm sure I could enjoy the Obama win more if Karen were here to share it.
However if Karen were here she undoubtedly would point out these buzz kill items:
CA, AZ and FL amended their consitutions to ban gay marriage.
In AR, unmarried couples were banned from adopting or fostering children. . . . . .
Also heart breaking: Al Franken appears to have lost the MN US Senate race.
(Over 2.4m votes counted and a difference fewer than 500 votes! --will there be a recount?) ...
Like it was news, I'd tell Karen Elizabeth Dole lost her Senate seat but she'd already know it.
Further she'd know NH dumped Senator Sununu
and then go on to inform me CO defeated an attempt to end affirmative action. . .
Chances are good that if Karen were here I would have learned from her that
MA and MI both approved pro-cannabis laws.
It's also entirely possible that Karen would have told me that
CO and SD voters had the opportunity to ban abortion but didn't.
Would the WA 'Death With Dignity' law have been news to her?
It boggles my mind to reflect on what a great friend I had.
Yes, Karen did enjoy chiding me and arguing with me and challenging me
and even knew ways to annoy me.
Except that I was waaaaaaaaaay closer to Karen than I have been to Christine,
I'd say Karen and I were like sisters!
(Even Diki likened Karen to a 'daughter' back in the early 80s.)
It was truly a sacred relationship. I suppose I appreciate that more as I miss her.
Now I know why Diki remembers Karen's 'cute little red car'!
In 1982, Diki visited Saint Louis to celebrate my 21st birthday.
She had come to cook a fabulous birthday dinner:
lamb, pilaf, and egg beans.
(All by myself I remember that part
but either I forgot or possibly I didn't know about her grocery trip
until her recollection.)
Mom drove the Spitfire! Karen let Diki use her Spitfire to drive to Schnucks!
Mom laughed and said driving the little car was really different.
Text messages from Karen Hornback:
Abe Lincoln was our first jewish president, just in on the radio- he was shot in the temple.
2008 June 18
my phone is asserting itself. It has labeled you "pending" y me dijo que lo enviar una mensaje -- or at least I think that is what happened
2008 July 18
You know I don't travel much. PA system just warned us that of all things here at ORD, BRIBERY (?!) is illegal. What to do? What to think?
2008 Sept 22 12:04pm
Post brief struggle I prevailed opening the bottled H2O from Manchu Wok. Were I to try the chopsticks at this point I fear good citizens would alert TSA.
2008 Sept 22 12:27pm
I'm flying alaska airlines - which I believe sarah palin owns and is personally flying its flight 23g. If something happens make sure carol knows I luv her
2008 Sept 22 1:16pm